I can't believe it -

It says Pregnant!

So I woke up yesterday to a huge temp spike- I know it was only 10 DPO, but I took a HPT yesterday and I thought I saw a line, but wasn't sure - it was so faint. So this morning, I took another one and there was another line - faint again. But def a line. So I confirmed with a digital and almost died of shock when "pregnant" popped up!! It took all of my self control in the world not to scream. (It was 6am) But Corey was still asleep , just about to wake up and get in the shower and I wanted to tell him like I always planned. So I quick got in the car and raced to the grocery store (in my pj's still) and asked the only person I could find to blow up a congrats balloon. I took 2 flower cards ( that go in bouquets) and they said "its a girl" and " its a boy" so I wrote on them... is it a mini pingers? or mini dingers? (our nicknames) and put that on the shelf in our bathroom. On the bed I tied the balloon to a stuffed turtle on our bed and put a bunch of onesies I got ( "I love my daddy" and turtle ones - we have a thing for turtles) in a gift bag with my pg test in a gift box.... When he got out of the shower he got the cards and was like "WHAT?, DO we have a bun???!!!!" I started crying and he started tearing up and doing a happy dance around the room. Its so surreal. I went to the doctor already ( advantage of being diabetic) and they really didn't tell me anything I don't already know. I have to go in with FMU tomorrow so they can confirm :) I have an appt on Nov 19th with the high risk team of doctors and surgeons. I am thrilled, scared, and being very cautious right now.

Corey didn't even fully want to believe it was true until I took another test tonight. So we got home from work I took another cheapie test - very faint line again - he said he didn't see it. So I took another digital. Again it popped up pregnant. Wow.

So here goes our journey of pregnancy for the next nine months and me being a pregnant diabetic.....

Surprising Corey!

I had to make sure :)

4weeks 1day pg! Lovely bloat!

A test is not just a test, anymore.

Even more frustrating than a BFN - A 263 blood sugar reading. Ahhhh! I haven't had one of those in months. I have worked so hard to keep my numbers in normal range (70-110 for me) and then this happens today. Frustrating because if for some reason I was pg right now that could potentially really harm the baby. Being a diabetic and TTC is scary business. I try to act like everything will just be normal for me during this time, but the truth is: I am really scared. What if something goes wrong. Will it be my fault? Will my diabetes be to blame?

I have met with my specialist very regularly and he assures me, that while I have to be more careful than most, I can have a normal and healthy pregnancy( just add in a few hundred extra doctor appts ;)

When I get a # like that on my meter, though, wow, its shocking. I didn't even eat anything bad. Well luckily with my pump I will be back to normal in no time. But still frustrated.

On a lighter note, Corey is back home and we had a great weekend. A friends wedding on Friday night, where we met some really great people. Sat. was just a nice lazy weekend day full of movies and lasagna :) We watched Sleepless in Seattle, Erin Brokovich, Pretty Woman, The Wedding Date, and Smart People.... and had a totally unproductive day!! (it was so worth it)

Today is laundry, house cleaning, and paperwork day, fun :( Hope my numbers go down soon!

<------ That's my pump, it holds insulin that I get 24/7. That is what is going to keep me and our baby (when it happens) healthy and happy!